Stress...stress...stress....

Final exam is around the corner, but the mock exam have defalted my morale. After all i did, a satisfactory results was obtained... maybe i'll have to really be serious this time, if i don't, this will be the end of my future and my hopes will come crashing to the ground.... My results certainly did not please my parents, and they imflicted more pressure onto me.... i don't want to dissapoint them, but it is a bit hard to get want they expect, although it is also what i expect. Anyway, two weeks left till the first paper and i'll have to buck up and study hard!!! Gambateh to myself... as chaos reigns, the hero of chaos will strive to score total victory!

ps: happy bday to tiong seng bro and agnes! haha!

End of holidays

Todays marks the end of my 10 days holiday, most of my friends have the holiday until end of this week, but i started early...and it should end early...haiz... this means that i must focus more on my AS examination, which is on the month of october...soon ei? well, thorughout this holiday.. i played games with my best friends, mad on dota lately... wonder if i can contain the urge to play dota for the next two months? hahaha! nevertheless, i have to thank my good pal chong hui who was always there keeping me company, without him, my holidays would not be that interesting. Anyway, holidays are for us to rest and walk a longer road, to all my friends who are having exam! GAMBATEH! All the best to u guys!

Holidays: good or bad?

After my exam, i went out to jusco with my college frens and watch the movie, the movie was nice...but i din't really feel happy, i wonder y? after the movei we went for lunch and forced to attend the very boring 3 hours malaysian studies class...phew... some couldn't take it and decide to have the holiday few hours earlier, lol! I played dota the whole night and still it does not satisfy me, something was missing...but i did not know what.

The next day, i met my best frens and played dota along with them, it helped in regaining my mood tho, but after my frens went home, my mood change from better to worse, i was so pissed that i sped when i am suppose to fetch my brother...something really different from my calm and composed character...i was being rash, stubborn, and i knew that something was wrong with me.
My fren suggested that i should pray, so i prayed be4 going to sleep.

On sunday morning, it was my best frens's bday, it appears that i was back to my normal joyious self. We played dota for the whole day and i went to have dinner with him. I chatted about this problem of mine and he gave me an advise that i think it did work. Maybe i should take things slow with girls... i have no problems with the guys, but big problems with some girls, i wonder why? nevertheless, i decided to calm myself and take things easily, looks like the rest of the holidays will be freaking boring ei? haiz...

Mock exam is mocking us...lol!

nowadays some of my classmates are being rather quiet and stressed up.... thats is because exam is 3 days away i guess...haiz... this situation leaves me high and dry without someone to talk to and share my problems with. Guess i may look cheerfull in the eyes of many, but the truth is... no one can truly truly see the inside of me.... i can be happy when i'm sad, smiling when i'm angry and laughing when i just feel like whacking the fella up... classic hypocrite huh? Well, circumstances forced me to do so as i found out that being straightforward has its cost! Nevertheless, i know there are still ppl who support me, thats all that matters now....the ones who truly cares. Well, as this exam thingy catches up on me, i can play games to destress! thats y i'm call the GAME FREAK!!!! haha!