Why?

I used to be optimistic, carefree and happy. But i became more emotional because of you.... I am willing to be more concern and less selfish because of you. The fact that i am willing to change means that i care about you and will help u face any difficulties in your life. But why do u hide your problems from me? Why do u suffer in silence? Don't want me to worry? U think i can't tell that u are troubled? The fact that u are quiet and unresponsive during lunch, the chat wif william and in study area shows that u something is troubling you. The more u hide it, the more i worry, so pls...dun keep it inside you....tell me....Even if i can't help u solve it but at least share your troubles with me, just like what i will do to u when i have any problems....

failure and anger...but its not despair..

Last tuesday i had a PBL workshop with an old lecturer from manchester univerisity. I carried out a rather performable discussion, under my lead we manage to determine the important points of the case given. However, one of my teammates which was a very good fren out my has a bit too much too critisize me! She complained that i only focused on the most talkative person in my group and neglected the rest, as well as not keeping track of the time! LOL! Well all i could say was she was not being understanding to my plight and jump into conclusion. THe rest of the members have no comments and thought that we have done well. The only reason the old man said we are not good enough is because back there in manchester he had very high standard PBL students, haha! On wednesday we had a test that contributes to 10% of the finals...I could not really answer most of the questions and was kinda worried that i will fail. And on thursday when the anwers are revealed by prof yasmin, I lost hope...so many questions i have done wrong. True enough, news from Dr. Chai reach my ears during friday that i have failed...Damn! Same situation as the last block! But i should not despair, i have passed the last end of block exam and I SHALL DO SO AGAIN!!! My gf sensed that i was a bit upset so she brought me out for a movie in one utama. Sucker punch? I think i chose the wrong movie, a weird and bizzare movie which not much of a storyline. Nevertheless i still enjoyed her company, thx darling! Open day in gonna take place today and tommorow, have lots of things to do, plus next week is a very hectic week before they give us a revision break... Thats the time where i should really focus on studying...Go voon! The awesome Voon Zu Kang will never fail to succeed!!! ARGHHHH!!!

Week 7

I just completed my week 7 of the second block for MBBS... This time my PBL was going ok, perhaps because i prepared myself this time, haha! The last few PBL thought me a big lessson to be prepared, hopefully i can still pull things off fairly well this time. Last thursday i witness the 3rd seminar group to present, they have a very unique method of interacting with the audience, but they were slighty unorganised and some actually showed that they were unprepared. The video they produced also was not clear. My mentor Dr chai actually told them straight in their faces, kinda pity them oso. But this gave me a huge boost in my confidence to win the grand prize :P haha! nonetheless they gave a good effort, I shall not degrade them. Prof viji gave us a test for biochemistry, and the questions are kinda strange, the answer he gave was also a bit perculiar, how can he follow the answer 100%? He should have his own knowledge, tsk...tsk... no point going for his test i guess, just for attendance sake, haiz... Accompanied my girl for many days in this week, starting to miss her when she goes back home for the weekends. Am i addicted to her? LOL! Have to control myself edy, later cannot focus on studies, got minitest next week sia! Damn!

Note from my dear to me :P

抱歉，我不完美 时间久了 你会发现 我其实很爱生气跟吃醋
 
抱歉，我不完美 会哭会闹 又喜欢伪装
 
抱歉，我不完美 缠着你 问着你 一遍又一遍
 
抱歉，我不完美 约束你 要求你 不许乱花钱
 
抱歉，我不完美 优点没有多少 唯一让我骄傲的不过是坚持
 
抱歉 我不完美 随时都会因为一些事情 让你给我解释
 
抱歉，我不完美 不够温柔 对你的包容也有用尽得时候
 
抱歉，我不完美 不会哄人 也没办法做到不让你生气
 
抱歉，我不完美 因为不完美 担心你遇到那么完美的她
 
我胡闹跟蛮不讲理 都是因为在乎 在乎你胜于理智

每段小风波以后 也会自责 为什么不能再包容一点
 
你对于我来说很重要
 
我希望你会比从前快乐 我也努力这么做
 
做不好 嗯 总也做不好 
我多想让自己完美一点 这样就不用提心吊胆
 
我习惯了那么多你的习惯 就再也习惯不了没有你以后的习惯
 
彼此痴情能否到得了最后 我多想到最后
 
多年以后 你还会牵着我的手吗？
  
你还是会和以前一样执着吗 会和以前一样爱我 一样宠我吗？
 
我真的很想和你一起走到最后
 
我不完美 你也不完美 希望合在一起是完美的。

我爱你
 
Isn't she sweet? :P

Friday :P

Today is supposed to be the day that we are going to get a biochem test from prof viji, but I dun wan to waste my time listening to his grandfather story after the test therefore i decided to skip it and go have a movie in one-utama :) Went to see big mommas with my darling, it was an epic funny movie! haha! although i was rather tired...i wonder why, but i still try my best to enjoy it :) Apparently about 10 students din go for the test today so well ok if prof viji question me i will have a perfect excuse, haha! since my grandfather is having his 90th bday tmr i might as well make the best out of it, hehe...nevertheless i will be leaving for ipoh tmr, take care my dear, will be back in a day XD

Snooker!!!

Had a tough immunology test yesterday :( Just heard from anita that it has to be counted as marks...and apparently she was not pleased that many of us using our laptop for leisure purposely during her lectures. And today...They actually BANNED us from using laptops in class!!! damn! I tried to break the rules any time possible, but in anita's lectures i can't because she has her eyes on me ==

Yesterday afternoon lectures end at 3pm and i went back to take a nap after a tiring study night the day be4, although it wasn't very fruitful, hahaha! Around 5.15pm i and rudely awakened by the sound of knocked on my door! I went for a lot and saw three strangers that identified themselves as agents of a hostel bringing a future medical student wanting to view our rooms...zzz...what the heck? Do they know a word called 'PRIVACY'? How can they just barge in and disturbed ppl when they are sleeping? bunch of idoits! I couldn't sleep after the shock and was just lying on the bed waiting for time to pass.

I realised that I had to go for an outing wif william, vivian and my darling :) Although my head is spinning, i still struggled up and tried to contact my gf. Apparently he was dead asleep and i had to go and search for her in her hostel ==
Nevertheless we still meet up wif the others and went to dataran sunway for dinner :)
My head felt much better after some nice food and soon we agreed on a snooker tag team match between me and my gf with william and vivian. I can see the tension builiding up on us guys as we see the girls or i mean our teamates where are begineers commiting fouls and giving advantage to the opponent. However, william is a much better player than i am and my team apparently suffer a utter defeat. LOL! He challenge me to a one on one match after that and thrashed me due to my repeated mistakes :( However I won him in a rematch with special handicap rules that gave me a slight advantage :) After the game vivian is somewhat displeased and reprimanded us for pushing her towards someone that she has no interest in. I was like 'WHAT'? She was the one that accepted william's date and chatted wif him like as if she liked her and she has the guts to blame ME? If she don't like him should tell him straight instead of procrastinating and blaming me in the process...zzz... Nevertheless I do not mind being blamed as long as i can help her get a decent guy and make a joke out of her, wakakaka!

Well that was all about yesterday, just finish all the lectures for today and gotta attend a practical later. Lastly, I am going to meet a cardiologist after all this, hope I will be fine :S

Bad day..bad day!!

I woke up in the morning as usual and attending two of prof karim lectures. Me along with my dear, keziah and vivian went down to canteen for lunch. Dawa joined us on our way but i later found out that the canteen was closed!! Apparently the fella end his contract edy == But nvm, i tried out other stalls then. However, my gf did something that made me quite pissed, she humiliate me in front of a new friend, zzz... She apologized hurriedly and i forgave her but told her exactly how i felt. Later in the afternoon, i realised that the infamous prof viji will be joining to facilitate our PBL group! damn! And someone as successful in PBL such as me is scolded by him for being quiet and even asked me whether i am sleeping or not!Damn! this humiliation is not tolerable!! grrr!! To makes things worst, I ordered pizza during the night and the fella was more than 1 hour late!! I was waiting until all the acid in my stomach is attacking the stomach wall edy, zzz... and the whole day lost mood to study for the immunology test for this morning, and i think i flunked it! Haiz...hope tmr will be better! All the best to my seminar! I will never lose my optimistic attitude! Hmp!!